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Extreme studyblr/langblr lurker 😎

reblog if your name isn’t Amanda.

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yiffmaster:

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pastassassins:

2,121,566 people are not Amanda and counting!

We’ll find you Amanda.

this has almost 11 million notes what is this

I’ve never seen this post once in 10 years on this site

@hellsite-hall-of-fame

I’ve never even heard of this before tho??? Wtf??????????

oh my god, I didn’t think there were any surviving versions of this post left

For those who weren’t around in the Deep Lore times, this is one of the relics of the editable post era. This post has THE SINGLE HIGHEST NOTES of ANY post on this site, bar none, but with more than a dozen variations. Every single post you’ve ever seen with more than 3 million notes has been a different version of this one.

This is the “Dean’s Gym Shorts” post. This is the Flubber post. This is the original “Reblog if you support gay people” post. it was ALL of them. before half the site got nuked, it had even more notes than it has now - at one point, well over 15 million, and that was years ago.

This, with no exaggeration, is the ONE TRUE heritage post

(via cringepics)

cronepunk:

dovewithscales:

likeadevils:

so i have a mildly popular “reblog and put in in the tags” post going around and its. very clear how many people don’t know how to interact with a tumblr post

so, first of all, tumblr’s culture has changed a lot in the past couple years. there’s a genuine community effort to not start any drama, and ironically a lot of the current hostility is an effort to keep things calm. there’s also a change in how people interact with posts, so if you haven’t been here in a while please skip down to the tags/replies/reblog with text section.

for newcomers: you should be reblogging posts about as liberally as you would like something on twitter. if you only like stuff, people will think you are rude/a bot. you’ve probably heard people talk about “cultivating your dash,” and thats because this platform is 100% centered around your dashboard. trending matters less, unfollowing and blocking in order to shape your dash into it’s best form is widely accepted, the majority of the content you’ll find and interact with will be because of your dash, and the only way to put things on your dash is to reblog them. tumblr users are deeply distrustful of algorithms and have largely turned off the “see posts your friends have liked” function (i recommend you also turn of the various algorithms in settings → general settings → dashboard preferences).

so, once you’ve reblogged a post, there’s three ways to add content to it. the tags, replies, and reblogging with text. all of them have different connotations

the tags: an inside voice. originally they were meant for organizing your blog (and they’re still used for this), but they’ve also morphed into a way to share thoughts that aren’t funny/insightful enough for non-followers to be interested in. when in doubt, put your comment in the tags

replies: basically talking to your friends in class. your followers have no way of finding your replies (they don’t pop up on the dash, nobody gets notified except for the original poster) so chances are, only the person who made the post is gonna see your comment. it’s for quick one-offs that you’re okay with other people overhearing, but really is only made for one person. they’re like a public dm

reblog with text: an outside voice. you’re getting up on a stage in town square and entertaining people. make sure it’s funny or insightful— bottom line, add something new to the conversation. you should use this the least

general rules of thumb

  • when in doubt, reblog. people will judge you if your blog is only personal posts and you only interact with other content by liking it.  
  • the only things people will judge you for reblogging are personal vent posts. leave a like to give a little virtual hug
  • if a post is asking about your personality/opinions (i.e: tell me what’s the last tv show you watched, that kind of thing) put it in the tags 
  • also if you see a nice edit, gifset, or art, reblog and say something nice in the tags! it’s that nice sweet spot of common enough that no one will notice but uncommon enough to make the artist’s day

Finally real advice for new users. This is a solid guide for how to make the transition from Twitter to Tumblr.

In particular, artists need you to reblog. A reblog helps them get seen. A like doesn’t help them at all.

And I would like to add image descriptions and audio/video transcriptions can really help increase reblogs. Please remember to make your posts as accessible as possible.

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violetsnotebook:

Earlier this month one of my favourite authors and personal hero passed away. It’s one of those things that you don’t really think about. Of course I know people get older and we all die but words on paper are so permanent, so easy to reach from the shelves.

Ōe Kenzaburō passed away at eighty-eight, survived by his wife and children. His eldest, Hikari, is disabled. Most of Ōe’s novels cover the experience of confronting this reality, dealing and accepting it without romanticising the situation while also avoiding falling prey to cynicism. In other words, being responsible and taking life as a deliberate act—a lesson that has shaped my life radically and affirmed my identity in those turbulent early years of new adulthood.

Upon learning of his death I wandered into my study to find the corner where I keep copies of his books. They’re kept separate, almost hidden. I haven’t looked at them in a long time. When I opened them after years of abandon, I found them still as beaten and worn as I left them. They are littered with tabs, old post-it notes of homework to-do lists, deadlines for papers, notes on character relationships, in-class doodles, and so on. My copy of A Personal Matter in particular is wrinkled after surviving water damage, which I can still very clearly recall was the result of a cold water bottle sweating inside my bag. The pages are colourful thanks to highlights and underlines committed by a version of me that I miss but do not wish to return. I was reminded of the noise, the pressure, the feeling of a noose around my neck when it was all or nothing, now or never.

“When the time comes and, as you say, there’s no going back, perhaps we’ll be a little kinder to each other.”

It was almost automatic, the way I turned to this quote. I could’ve done it with my eyes closed. I was able to locate it instantly even after all these years. On page one hundred and sixty of my copy of The Silent Cry it’s highlighted in yellow with a star on the margin. I had written my honours thesis on this novel and found great consolation in it. And since then I have carried this particular quote with me. I know it by heart and I often hear it echo in certain moments of my life. It seems clarity always comes a little too late. There are things we know but cannot fight until it simply passes and we are forever changed. But life isn’t over until it is. And when the time comes, whenever that is, there will be forgiveness and release. And aren’t we all at a point of no going back as each second passes?

Ōe’s work represents a more optimistic time in my life, when I still harboured old dreams, when I cared so much it was violent. And to be honest, it’s difficult to stay still and really revisit the memories. I’ve gotten up multiple times to pace around my kitchen. Even now as I procrastinate on writing this I am a contradiction—I want to say something, to put feelings into words yet I feel all too fragile and anxious of what I might find in commemoration. But the highlights and pencil marks on the pages of my books, as much as I think they’ve been constant, have faded in time. The creased pages caused by water damage have smoothed out even just a bit. One day all that hurt no longer will. I choose to live my life as consciously as I can. There are things I cannot do anything about. I’ve got a past that I cannot change and a future I cannot know. But I am here.

I am here.

I intend to reread all of his books, little by little, and this time with the luxury of quiet and stability. I am no longer the girl I used to be but I forgive her. I am no longer the girl I used to be and I forgive her. If I ever make it to eighty-eight I hope I will have reread Ōe enough to have forgiven myself a thousand times over.

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kaijuno:

kaijuno:

I’m back in college, I’m learning a new language, I’m writing again, I’m back in rehab. Ever since I got diagnosed and medicated for ADHD, life has just been so much easier and it makes me wanna cry sometimes. I really thought the struggle before meds was just how Life worked and that it was always gonna be hard. But now that it’s not, and because I’m so used to putting 200% into my work just to keep up, I’m killing it now. I feel like I’m finally on an even playing field.

And I’m upset. I’m upset that I threw away my entire adult life up until age 25 to mental illness and addiction. I didn’t deserve that. I deserve better for myself. I deserve to be happy and god damn it I’m finally working on getting there

@kaijuno You didn’t throw your life away. The system failed you. The education system, the mental health system. You kept moving forward in whatever ways you could try. They might not have been good ways, but you were trying what you could. You can’t blame yourself for not functioning better, for not making better choices, because of another untreated illness that made you prone to succumbing to bad habits.

That’s not your fault. Not knowing how to try to try to control something that hasn’t been given a name for you, or isn’t being treated, or something you haven’t found coping mechanisms for yet is. Not. Your. Fault.

You have to forgive your past self for not knowing how to deal with illness. Many people have to forgive their past selves for that. And it definitely is possible to forgive the younger version of yourself for making mistakes. You didn’t deserve the suffering, but the suffering wasn’t because of your younger self. It was because of the untreated symptoms of a significant version of an illness and how others handled it.

You’re young, you have plenty of time to make your life what you want it to be. I promise. Getting diagnosed and medicated is the first step in so many things falling in line.

You can take some time to be angry things didn’t change sooner, but know that it isn’t the fault of your past self. Things happen in life that make living difficult, especially for people with neurodivergence. Trauma. Abuse. The way people treat you for having a mental illness and/or learning disability, especially when they don’t know or understand that something is effecting you. The way you treat yourself for being different, for feeling like a failure because you didn’t have the help you needed.

None of that is on you. None of the things that caused your suffering because of your ADHD is your fault. You can’t make proper choices when you don’t understand your mind well enough to combat bullshit. And there are many people with ADHD that greatly suffer before they can get on track and get medicated. Who they were before that, the limitations they had, the days they just had to cry in frustration, should ever be seen as a personal flaw. It’s a symptom of an illness. Of a disability.

So many of us with ADHD don’t see it as the disability it needs to be seen as. If we did, I think we’d be more forgiving of ourselves and our actions caused by ADHD.

You’re headed in the right direction. I hope you can one day forgive you past self, because I get that right now you blame them for so much. But please don’t. They were a victim of their symptom, and they did the best they could. I hope you come to realize that.

(via kaijuno)

slfcare:

sending love and warmth to everyone feeling uncomfortable, upset, fatigued, lonely, ignored, hurt or lost today. whatever it is, it has no choice but to pass. in the meantime, it’s okay to not be the strong one for once.

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it’s like, why can’t I just decide on a new career at 3 a.m. in the throes of a hyperfixation and then get hired in an entry level position in that field immediately afterwards without any experience or schooling or history of interest?